Been reading lately about Nehemiah the guy behind the wall – what a mighty man of God – He went way out of his way to do God’s will – to re-build the wall around the Holy City after the great desolation of city by the Babylonians and most of the Israelites had been taken captive.
He was indeed a real warrior of God and he was used mightily knowing that this was God’s calling on his life to re-build the City of God.Well this blog is not about re-building walls but knocking a few down!.
When I look back on my past (which is something I often don’t do because God has moved me on greatly) I am astounded just how much things have changed and how God has worked in not only my life but those of my wife’s also.
I, like Nehemiah had built walls around me. Walls to me were pretty essential,they were what I thought were walls of safety and secrecy. Walls I could hide behind and not show the world. Walls where I could hide my true feelings and what I was deep inside.
I liked my walls because they didn’t let the world in – I reckon I could keep all my idiosyncrasies and foibles that the rest of humanity didn’t need to know about. I was and still am to a degree a private person and during the time before God called me, my secrecy and hiding the REAL me was oh so important!
When I came to Christ and really surrendered all to Him, I slowly began to realise just how many walls I had built over the years – not only that, but I was overwhelmed by just how thick and reclusive my walls had become.
It seemed that over the years I had re-enforced my walls over and over again and I was staggered to realise that my walls had made me so inward thinking and really very selfish – nothing like what God had called us to be.
I had to start breaking down my walls and even now I am still working at doing just that -even after all these years.
Please take heart, if you are like me and built heaps of walls – you really need to pick up that hammer and get to work. SPOILER ALERT!!!! You won’t be even able to contemplate starting without your foreman helping you and advising you how to go about it – YOU CAN’T DO IT ON YOUR OWN!
The great part about it is that after God came into my life, His Spirit opened my eyes to my magnificent and so well built walls – they were so well made but I suddenly realised they really had to come down.
So with God’s amazing help I grabbed the hammer and between God (who did most of the work) and myself we started on the first wall. I would like to share just some of the many walls that I had constructed over the years and we, that is God and myself, are still working hard to knock over.
The wall of jealousy
this one was the 1st one the HS directed me to – what an awesome wall it was – we both laid into it with vigour but it seemed as soon as we started to knock it down that it was so old and so well built it started to grow again!!! It had to take us both several years before we finally started to make some headway – even know there are remains of that stubborn wall still remaining.
No sooner had I started to make some progress with this huge wall – God brought to attention just how many walls there were for us to work on – it seemed that as soon as we started on one wall there seemed to be more and more and more – I felt like giving up but God encouraged me and reassured me that his love for me was true.
The wall of worry
Was the next one. Worrying should not be part of the believers life – on saying that how do we overcome worry?
God clearly teaches us in 1 Peter 5:7 to “cast all anxiety on him because he cares for you”. It’s not in God’s plan for us to cart around our worries and anxiety. He is so prepared to take them from us.
Now if you are anything like me and that wall has been around for so many years – please don’t think you can’t ask for help with this one – it takes a fair bit of effort! – Try as I might this one was pretty stubborn. There is medication available and if your worries are causing your anxiety, please don’t think you are letting God down to go and ask for extra help – I did and I feel so much better.
The wall of self-pity
This one was a doozy! Not sure about you but I reckon we are all born with a wall of self-pity just waiting for us to grow it bigger and bigger – we love to protect our egos and our rights and the “what about me” syndrome. The wall of ME is a toughie!
When we keep on indulging our SELF we start living for SELF and take our minds off God completely. In Philippians 2:3 God says to us “do nothing out of selfish ambition and vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others ahead of yourself
The wall of doubt or non belief
Doubt can be so disabling! James 1 tells us that when we pray we should pray without doubt using our faith – so doubt can be a destroyer and satan loves to use our doubts to destroy not only our minds but our bodies also.
I was a tiger for doubting – and may I say that doubting can be a normal set of circumstances, at some stage or other we have all doubted, and our enemy knows that and tries to use it against us time and time again.
Of course the remedy for doubting is faith and Romans tells us that faith comes from hearing the Word of God and acting upon it – cool advice!
I have learnt over the years to trust God and DOUBT MY DOUBTS – that has helped me no end – Doubting my doubts instead of doubting God is a sure way of being able to see your way clearly to where God has become a faithful and trustworthy friend even when things take a really bad turn your faith and trust in God will definitely see you through.
The wall of pride
WOW!! this was a toughie for me as well and still is!
Pride can be such a downward slippery slope, if you lose your footing it can be so so hard to regain your balance – Pride in lots of ways is OK – we can be proud of a job well done or in our case of our Grandblessing’s achievements – then there is the other sort pride – the pride that God hates!
That’s the sort of pride that conceives sin such as conceit or trying to woo the pat on the back – wanting to get the limelight and giving ourselves the credit for something that someone else has achieved or more importantly what God has achieved!
It can be such a stumbling block for a lot of prideful people – narcissism and self-adoration are two main pointers to pride in oneself and totally abhorrent to God.
These are just a few of the walls that God and I are still working on – I can’t help but to look over my life and I am awed by how God has worked in my life and what He has done so far – but on saying that we both have a long way to go.
My clear advice is to get right with God (that is essential) pick up that sledge hammer, and get to work – you may be like me and realise just how many walls you have built around your life – Ask God to clearly show you where to start.
It’s a very powerful prayer and one you should not undertake lightly! It can have amazing and huge changefull effects on yours and your family‘s lives.
So God bless you as you drag on your Hi Viz safety overalls, your trusting sledge and even your wrecking ball – Get going but be prepared for a real lot of work – just like the PANTENE add – “it won’t happen over night BUT it will happen”.
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